1. |
my moon
03:56
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next time i see you
i'm gonna bury myself in your skin
gonna take a knife and tear a piece open
make myself a home beside your bones
no matter how close we get,
we're never close enough
and now that you've gone far away,
there's so much to catch up on
so i'll call you by 11
and probably miss you - asleep by 9
but when you see the notification,
you'll know i want to hear your voice again
cause you're the moon in my night sky
and you're the apple of my eye
and when the world is cold and black
i tell myself, 'she's comin back'
but in my deepest heart of hearts
where sorrow creeps and fear stays sharp
i see a world without your light
a world i'd die from in a night
next time i see you
i'm gonna turn you into
strings for my harp and wings for my bones
cause i can never let you go
i tell my harp everything
and i tell you everything
so i'll combine you into one
and then you'll never leave again
don't be afraid of me, my love
i just want you all to myself
isn't that what true love's made of?
holding you tight until the end
cause you're the moon in my night sky
and you're the apple of my eye
and when the world is cold and black
i tell myself, 'she's comin back'
but in my deepest heart of hearts
where sorrow creeps and fear stays sharp
i see a world without your light
a world i'd die from in a night
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2. |
november
03:13
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if we make it through november
i think we'll be all right
please prove me right
if i meet your mother
and i manage not to kill her
i think we'll be all right
god, i hope i'm right
it's so dark and wet outside
but your voice warms every night
i just wanna make it with you
i wanna be with you on christmas
and start the year off right
wanna tell you that i love you
in person one more time
wanna show you my new scars
and talk about the stars
cradle you all night long
kiss you like that night we
made out and then watched videos
about cannibals
babe, there's no one like you
please don't let me go
if we make it through november
i think we'll be all right
but tonight i miss your soft skin
and that beautiful, sweet smile
i'm so in lesbians with you
but you've gone to the concrete zoo
so here i sit and play this harp
and pretend that it's you
got multiple reasons to keep my nails chewed down
even though i know you hate it
and you'll hate that lyric too
i can't help but finger my harp
and think of you
and i'm sorry for these lyrics
sorry for being crude
but you gotta understand
everything makes me
think of you
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3. |
baby bat interlude
02:32
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4. |
final girl
04:25
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why do all these movie killers
remind me of you?
am i gonna watch august underground
or pearl tonight while i cry?
i hold your bear close to me
and wonder how this happened to me
my perfect girl,
my angel
out there
in new york without me
does she feel free?
does she even miss me?
she tells me she does,
but i'm unsure
if she's just telling me
what i want to hear
is it cold out there in new york?
the california sun left when you did
it hasn't stopped raining since you left
the crow said it can't rain all the time
i guess he'd know more than i
but still i can't help but wonder
if anyone has left a pain like this
all those horror movies didn't prepare me
for such anguish
i'd take some gore
over this
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5. |
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i carry
our sweetest memories
close to my chest
where they feel my heart beating
and know that i'm still needing them
and you
i'm at the nail salon
where you called out my name
and said simply, "i love you"
i'm at the mall parking lot
where you pulled me tightly to you
so everyone would know it's me and you
and i'm at the cemetery
where we took our photographs
and committed crimes i'll take to my own grave
and i want you back
cus flowers cannot grow
in soil where the sun never shines
i carry
a photograph of you
on my phone's home screen
where it sees my eyes weeping
and knows that i'm needing
you with me
i'm at the church
where i kissed you before saints
and declared you my favorite sin
i'm at the show
where poppy sang our song
and i kissed you like i'd never let you go
and i'm at the park
where we held onto those cute snails
and talked about their passions in the dark
i carry
a locket of your hair
on the necklace that i wear
where it sees me playing
and knows i'm needing you
to hear this song
this song
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6. |
i'll build us a castle
05:37
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it's pouring rain out here tonight
just like the night you left my side
and i'm standing in the cold
just wishing you were here to hold
and all my life
i've never felt a dream as impossible as you
so tell me why
i still hold onto hope you'll want me -
that you'll love me as much as i do you
cus i've been chasing fairytales
ever since i was a little vamp
and back then i dreamed of princes
but wondered why the princess was what made me
sit in a cold shower and hate myself for hours
could it be?
that i didn't wanna be her,
i wanted to kiss and marry her
and here you are, my darling
and i just let you walk out my front door
so hold on tight
tonight
the castle waits for you and i -
don't cry
tonight
it's you and i
it's pouring rain out here tonight
but the moon still there, she shines so bright
and i know you're looking at the same night sky
just promise me you'll make it home
before i die
cause i can't do this alone
and i need you here, so close
so tell me why
i still hold on to my dreaming -
to my fantasy of you with me
cus i've been chasing fairytales
ever since i was a little vamp
and back then i dreamed of princes
but wondered why the princess was what made me
sit in a cold shower and hate myself for hours
could it be?
that i didn't wanna be here,
i wanted to kiss and marry her
and here you are, my darling
and i just let you walk out my front door
so hold on tight
tonight
the castle waits for you and i -
don't cry
tonight
it's you and i
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Espi Kvlt
Just a gay trans writing gay trans songs.
Part-time trap metal musician, part time singer-songwriter, full-time vampire elf.
They/Vamp/Elv/He
NB Vampyre Elf
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